一个巨蟹座男孩和处女座女孩的故事

<犹豫不觉> PART 2

5-4-2006 02:33 AM
刚刚打了电话给她。。。
她说。。。那次发生关系。。是因为我是她第一个男人。。。她贪玩。。想了解别的男人是怎样的。。。
但是现在没有了。。。

现在。。。
和她出去的男人。。。她对他有了感觉。。。
他们有牵手，有拥抱，有亲吻。。。但是没有发生关系。。。
那男人知道她有男朋友。。。。
那男人说“你会和我这样，是因为你不够爱他”
她告诉我说。。。她对那男人有了感觉。。。还会继续和他出去。。。
虽然她对我还有感觉。。。

我的心在滴血。。。

我告诉她。。。
“就这样了。。。我们分吧。。。
4月10号那天。。我们不需要再见面。。。
或许他比我更适合你。。。你也不再属于我了。。。
祝你幸福。。。”

她说。。。“我不管，4月10号那一天。。。我一定要见到你。。。。”
就挂上电话了。。。

见到了面又如何呢？
结局还不是一样呢？
我们还是分吧。。。


5-4-2006 02:54 AM
不知怎么的。。。
我眼中没有泪水。。。。
当我和她说话时。。。。我很冷静。。。。
难道是因为最痛的时期已经经历过了？

我太疼她。。太纵容她了。。
只要她会感觉快乐。。我都没异议。。。
才会让这一切发生。。。

大家。。。尤其是男生们。。。
对一个女生可以宽容。。但是不可以纵容。。。

这是我经历三年过后的教训。。。。


5-4-2006 03:16 AM
她要求我们暂时分开一段日子。。。。冷静一下。。。
我说。。。。。那么不需要冷静了。。。。
你的心也不在我这边了。。。
如果再见面。。。也只是让我更痛苦。。。

她还是很任性的说。。。
我一定要见到你。。。
见我干什么呢？

还想让我痛更深吗？


6-4-2006 01:47 AM
又颓废了整天。。。强颜欢笑了整天。。。
如果说爱情是毒药。。。那么我已经不治身亡了。。。

老实说。。。
她是我第三任女友。。。
在她之前的女友。。有杂志封面模特儿。。。有漂亮富家女。。。都漂亮过她。。。温柔过她。。
不过。。。她却是我唯一深爱的女人。。。想结婚的女人。。。

4月10号。。。我将会见她。。。
两人当面谈清楚。。。如果她不想谈。。只想继续当我的女朋友然后又和别的男人在一起。。
我会不说任何话。。。让她去吧。。。
我已经做好最坏的打算。。。最坏的打算就是分手而已。。。
在和她拍拖三年以来。。。
我从来不缺女孩对我表示好感。。。找我出去。。。
只不过。。。我把持的住。。。没有出轨。。。

如果她真的执迷不悟。。。
我看我也不需要再忠诚了。。。
不要说我虚伪。。。
我只不过是暂时对爱情心灰意冷了。。。
当然。。。我也不会出去花天酒地。。。当花花公子。。。
我需要时间沉淀。。。

不过。。我努力赚钱。。。为我们的未来打算的计划。。。又怎么办？
刚买好的房子。。谁来住？。。。刚买了漂亮车。。谁来坐在旁边陪我兜风？
哈哈。。。
人家说得好。。。“世上只有父母好”。。。 孝敬父母为本。。。。 6-4-2006 02:37 AM
我从来没有后悔和她在一起。。。
和她在一起的日子。。。将会是我年老时写自传中的一个Chapter。。。

有些网友骂她一些蛮难听的话。。。
不知你们相信与否。。。在我心中我从来没有骂过她贱或者不识好歹。。。
我只有伤心。。沉淀。。。回忆。。

我是个很念旧的人。。一向以来如此。。。
我房间里的一切。。都与她有关系。。。
现在不知怎样好。。。


6-4-2006 02:49 AM
刚刚才和母亲谈起说。。。我和她将要分手了。。。
我说。。。我很对不起。。。不能够这么快结婚。。。给你早点包孙子了。。。
母亲也很平静。。说看到这几天我的样子。。。就知道有问题了。。

她告诉我说。。。

“上帝如果要拿回你视为最珍贵的东西，是因为上帝将要给你更好的
。。。没关系。。。只要你幸福。。。妈妈就安心了。。。”

她还教我如何分手。。。说分手要分的有风度。。。“你送给她钻戒，电话和一切东西，都不可要回。。。就这样算了吧”

哈哈。。。老妈。。你也蛮酷的。。。
这些我都知道，也一定会办到。。。


9-4-2006 07:45 PM
明天就是4月10号了。。。。
也是我们三年来。。。感情的年底。。。旅程的终点。。。
心里感慨非常。。。。

《最后的温柔》
作词：李子恒　作曲：陈小霞　
最后这一个冬季　就该收拾热情的过去　不要再缱绻北风里 冰冷的双手　也是最后的温柔　啊　你可知否 最后这一个冬季　就是我们感情的年底　不要再留恋过去 哀怨的双眸　也是最后的温柔　只是我不能再接受 不要再编织藉口　就让我潇洒的走 虽然你的眼神说明了你依然爱我 这是最后的温柔


无论如何，
投票项里面的选择。。从事情发生过后。。一直在我心里面转来转去。。。总是拿不定主意。。。
但是。。大家的意见真的帮了我很多。。让我看事情。。看得更加全面。。。清楚。。。
谢谢。。。

经过沉淀。。痛定思痛过后。。。
分手将会是对我们这段感情最好的结局。。。。
不是因为我不爱她。。。而是我不能接受成为后备胎的感觉。。。
而且。。我希望我还能够拥有最后一点的尊严。。。

明天就要见她。。。
我该叫她什么呢？ 一直以来都是亲密的称呼。。。
是不是该叫她的名字呢？ 好多年没有叫过了。。。
我心里一直告诉我自己。。。不要后悔。。不要心软。。。。勇敢一点。。

一个巨蟹座男孩和处女座女孩的故事

<他和她的故事> PART- 1


"这几天发现到了一个很感人的故事，不知该说是那男生傻还是痴情..."



4/4/2006 11:22 PM 我们拍拖三年多。。。一直如胶如漆。。。但是最近一年来。。。
因为工作的关系，我必须到外地去。
但是我还是保持着每天最少一通电话给她。。。每个月都会回去陪她最少一两天。。。
重要日子如生日，拍拖纪念日等等。。也会请假去陪她。。。
每次见面都非常甜蜜。。。她也是我心中结婚的最佳人选。。。。

直到最近。。。她开始和别的男子出去。。。
我开始怀疑。。。
一直到前天我逼问之下。。她才哭着承认道歉说。。她对不起我。。
当我在外地时。。。她曾经和别的男人发生关系。。。
但是不是现在这个。。。

她还说哭着说。。
“不要怪我，就是因为在我需要你的时候，你不在我身边，才会这样的，如果你有在的话，我一定不会的。”
我问她，你还想和我在一起吗。。她说“我还爱你”
当然，我也还爱着她。。。

这种心碎的感觉，我不会形容，
总之让人快要发疯了。。会有那种从高楼上跳下来的冲动。。。


4-4-2006 11:39 PM
她并没有承认，但我问她“你有没有对不起我”时。。
她哭着说“我不会告诉你的”。。。
让我又再问。。“是谁？！？”
她哭的很伤心，然后说“我不知道，我不会告诉你的。。”

我没有继续稳下去，因为每问一次，我的心就伤多一次，当然也伤到了她。

4/4/2006 11:51 PM
我知道。。。。我的个性就是太心软。。。
横不下心来。。。
听着她在电话里痛哭的时候。。。。我心中真的好痛。。。

本来决定了在这个月10号回去见她。。。我还应该去吗？
她求我和她见面。。。。
我真的要疯了。。。。


5-4-2006 12:13 AM
这两天。。。
我整个人像变了样似的。。。
在顾客面前。。。要强颜欢笑。。但是心里在淌血。。。

一个我最深爱的女孩。。。背叛了我。。。
夜深人静时。。。就好像现在。。。都是最痛的时候。。。
听到任何情歌。。。都唱到我的心里去了。。。更加的痛。。。
一直回忆着我们快乐的日子。。。甜蜜的日子。。。


5-4-2006 12:24 AM
如果我决定要分手。。。
我不会在电话里提出。。。

为了这段三年来我全心全意付出的爱情。。。
我会和她见面。。。
好好的给她一个交待。。。一个完整的结束。。。

5-4-2006 12:49 AM
我真的真的很乱。。。
忍受不了这种折磨。。。但是又想念她。。。。

两分钟前。。她刚打电话给我。。。
语气很平静。。。还像平常一样。。。叫我DEAR。。。嘘寒问暖。。。
可是我真的不愿多谈。。。真的不愿意。。。

谈了一会儿。。。
我说。。。“我现在很累。。要睡了”。。。
我听到她的声音开始要哭了。。。
我狠一狠心。。。就匆匆放下电话。。。。
现在轮到我的眼泪不听使唤。。。

5-4-2006 01:10 AM
刚刚从CD架中。。。找到这首歌。。。
听了。。。真的感触良多。。。
爱。。真的需要勇气。。。。分。。更加需要。。

爱是不夜城
回忆像星辰
热泪越沸腾
我越感觉有点冷
变了心的人
越想越伤人
枯坐到清晨
阳光替房间开了灯
想
若结局一样
又何苦再想
伤
若让人成长
我为什么怕分手的伤
解脱是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走我有自由好好过
解脱是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦
想
像结局一样
又何苦再想
伤
若让人成长
我为什么怕分手的伤
心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头
不要爱我的人再担心我
解脱是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走我有自由好好过
解脱是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦

wer she going to choose?

just came back from my wife there... discussed with her about future de things... she's confusing now... dono wer she wanna go... yesterday decided to go tarC, then dis morning said tat she wanna go form6... stil stay at mlk.. not bad also lar... haha//

Just now she told me tat she's going to visit mmu... tomolo go there n take a look, if ok, then apply there first... walau~ vy scary ler?... now got 3 choices pula.. if can get ptptn loan, then she sure can go mmu, tarC also same, but really lar, tarC too far adi... it's leceh if her parent wanna find her...
quite dangerous also... haha~

so.. jus wish her good luck lor... 55 determine wer she wanna go... jus lik me... ai~ going to MMU pula... really kena play for 4years... jus lik my cousin told me...

UNIVERSITY = 由你玩四年 (>o<)''

Journey to TarC - II

The Photos that i took yesterday...


the bus that we traveled to her relative's house... "W12"
she's going to travel those bus in her following 2 years...
(if always run outside >.< )

At tarC


this photo was taken at tarC.. when we waiting for the counselor, my wife capture dis guy...
inside got a white shirt de handsome boy... but not mine o.. my wife 相中 de boy boy o!
haha... finish liao lar... actually she wont do those things de... ai~ cuz of me... she become lik dis liao... haha~ i dono tat she took his photo using my phone... i jus discovered it after we going back... walau! got leng zai also diam diam... next time must inform me mar.. kaka~

this is my wife... capture at tarC.... hehe~ vy beautiful, right? ^^

~她的表情~

" i'm going to tarC ler... together wit u... ^.^"


"bluff u de lar... i'm not going to tarC with u liao... "


At PUDU bus station

we bought 5.30pm de tickets... then lim teh at there... at a chinese stall lo... then my wife told me... that tauke look lik <天国的阶梯>里的车成俊(权相于)... i baru discover ler... hai~ i lose liao.... cuz actually those things ler... i tell her first de.. mana now yesterday terbalik pula... she tell me wer got handsome boy pula... kaka~


this photo is not so clear... cuz dono how to snap him ler... my back camera got light(flash) de...



dis photo.. er... not so similar... but his front... really... look like him ler... if got chance, don forget to take a look at there... his nasi goreng n mee goreng... not bad...

but curry mee ler... still ok (i order from another side de).. keke!


After arrived Masjid Tanah

we went to TEN tEN... my wife n me only lar... tried lots of clothes at there... haha~ going to buy clothes... for study de....

this is TEN TEN at masjid tanah... the bigger market at here...



after we came out from TEN TEN, we sat at outside... suddenly we saw a 长脚猫...
very special right? it's 脚 different with others cat ler... dono y... mayb mix my wife de species.. haha
(cuz my wife de nickname is cat... then vy tall.. legs also vy long)

Journey to TarC - I

Today went to TarC for... take a look... well... reached Pudu there at 10more... after met my wife de relative, then we walked to LRT station... traveled for 15minutes ... then walked very far.. till tarC... vy hot~ well, i jus accompany my wife to there... cuz actually i would like to go MMU, but dis morning still confuse, wer should i go? form 6 or MMU? cuz if i go MMU, 4years kena stay at mlk adi.. but if i go to form6, stil got chance can get local university (if i work harder)...

then.... my wife de cousin met us at tarC(cuz he's a student in tarC)... then he showed us al the building inside there... took our lunch at their canteen... not bad actually.... n then quite cheap... then we went to the counter pertanyaan for asking smt... then waited for their counselor nearly 1hour... after he explain all the bler bler things... we went to my wife de relative's house...


then saw my wife de cousin... she's a beautiful gal! n very cute... hair style also cut t same wit cheng ling.... haha.. my idol ler... ><

her brother is very funny... heard smt bout his pc n a pk gal(his fren).... then.. my wife is going to study at tarC, then me... going to MMU lor... jus fill in the form... lots of bler bler de details...
ai~ two of us is going to break... she asked me to sign up the surat cerai wor... then 4years later, get marry again... kaka (if my senior read dis sentence , he will say: "dis gal ar... really is broken mountain, lesbian"... haha!)

dono how is my life... when she's not around me... who should i hold when i going down the stairway? i loss my simple spec when i going out(without bring out my spec ^^), who should i complain if i kena bully? who should i find when i wan to singing? who should i find when i wan to dancing or practise dance? walau~ kena berdikari liao... sooo shit.... hai~

well... i can do it... jus.... cant biasa if she's really not around me lor... i think she also tak biasa ler... cuz she wil become more diam if im not beside her... then she's quite difficult to know fren(simple can lar.. talk more.. then cannot liao wor... izit call shy?...) ai~ she kena use handphone de reminder liao, cuz me(human reminder) going to leave... wahaha!~

Jay n Pei Chan

try dis... it's funny.....

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getting fire....

jus heard from someone... he's sooo foolish and bad... he knows tat the gal is couple with another boy, but he still accept her... so..."贱格"！... dis types of boys r the worst in the world... dono y... i know him....

another gal tat i know... she's clever... n hyper "good".... then too smart till she lost her fren... tat's me... well, i hope tat our frenship can hold till forever.. but.. it's quite difficult... cuz lots of things happened between us... i wont treat u back... so don worry....

anyway... lost a fren... but let me become more mature.. izit deserve? anywer.. no matter wat u wanna do, it's up to... 你开心就好.. i jus can 祝福你咯。。。 bye bye.... our frenship...

well, i really hope that i can forgive u.. but can i do it? forget all the bad things that u did to me, jus remember the good part of u?... can i?

nokia 6680 - RM1200

Just now went to teleshop.... order nokia 6680, rm 1350 include 512mb de SD... well.. tomolo can get it liao.... when i go to the shop, they show my daddy N6680 , N3235(forget liao) and N6280 ler!!! CSL de sell rm1500... daddy don wan to buy that one wor... wu~ sad... cuz it's really cute... anywer.. going to KAI(hokkian) lots of money... buy handphone, study, buy pc, rent hostel n more more.... going to save money liao... keke...

HANG KASTURI 第二届＜希望＞一日营

Yeah! 第二届＜希望＞一日营 终于结束了！ went to school at 7am, luckly came back at 4more... but kena curi balik... if wait for them... then raining ler... cant back lor... ><

well, dis camp tak untung wor... macam jus untung RM2... cuz they too wasted liao lo ( i think lar)...
bought 50 nasi lemak... then got 10-20 de nasi lemak left there... till afternoon, cant eat liao lar... too waste liao...

48members of this camp reached at 830am, Mr HEE reached at 9more... then curtain-up at 10more... today, our principal absent ler... dono y... actually nothing special lo.. all the activities just like normal... but their games... fun... lots of new ideas lor.... when they were playing the games, i just stayed in the hall... cuz lazy to run here n there... jus helped them to control the music... then the volume too... very noisy.. till now, my ears macam stil got sound.. "ong ong ong" de sound... haha... the most interested games was at the 8th station.... they find a malay gal to sing the chinese song, then let them guess the name of the song... vy funny.... ><

well... congratulate for the successful of 第二届＜希望＞一日营... Happy birthday also~

Fool....

very tired now ... woke up early n went to school at 8.00am, who know... most of them reached at 8.30am... especially jes, she told me that they all went to school at 8am, but she was late... too terrible...

i tot tat the stupid meeting can finish before 12pm, but... they'r too pig... do everything slowly... until 11am also haven start the rehearsel... they just wasted my time.. sat there and chatting with them.... too foolish de action... but we chat y using month, hand stil working... they pula used month only...!!!

they ordered food/lunch to school and ate together, some of them went back at afternoon, then me?... reached home by 5.15pm... can say that i wasted my whole day at school cuz of their foolish action.. actually they r not so active to organise a camping... espeacially the president for the camping.... she pegang the jawatan but do few works only... just lik the vade mecum.. tomolo they need to use it.. but she haven fotostate it... all of the letter, she asked the others(senior) helped her to type it... i also kena.... then... wat r the works for the secretary?

the letter that need to send and type, her senior did it n put it inside the envelope... she just need to send the letter and stick the stamp... haha... it's sooo funny.... as a president, no need to do all of this.. izit stil call a PRESIDENT for a CAMP? anyway... mayb jus can say that... someone is trying to 8 between t junior.... she is my "FREN"... just lik to 8 everywer... when me organised the mooncake festival in 2years ago... she also 8 here n 8 there... well, she got pangkat, but she just like to complain dis one.. complain tat one... very k po... kakakakaa..... going to shoot her... ^^

at 3more.. nearly 4pm, she said tat the camping need a dance... they going to perform a dance to the VIP and all... she asked me n my wife to creat a dance for her... but she gonna went back at 5pm, creat a dance n teach others... jus gav us 1hour... tot we'r superman meh?! if two of us.. sure no problem lar... half an hour can complete adi... but need to teach the boys wor... they haven perform it b4... walau eh! ok... nvm... we jus creat it for u... but they wan to perform 2 dances tomolo... another one, my frens taught them, cuz they learnt it from xue hai.. so they can jus followed the steps.. then we created the new steps using 郭美美de song - <不怕不怕>...

mana know.. creat til half liao.. they said wanna balik kampung adi... hey miss n mr!! we jus creat it... haven teach u all! how can u know the steps o?! how to perform?!
mana know, she said.. "u guys must reach sch by 6am tomolo, then u can teach them.." wat a stupid sentence.... 1hour.. 3 of them can learn all of the steps n perform it? too...

suddenly, they stoped another dance, then packing wor... they said tat dance too hard to learn for 3 of tat boys... tat one is simple steps only...团康 de steps... lik dis also susah... then how to learn o... we creat till half baru say it... better go to LONG PIAK..... :-#

1month ago, i asked them, no body perform dance for the majlis perasmian ar? they said no need... then now baru.... siao.... if tomolo really wan me to teach them a dance... ok.. no problem.. but not the simple steps... use jolin de 睁一只眼闭一只眼... then u guys just learn it lor... we biassa wit dance de ppl also kena use 2hours to learn this song de steps.. if u can learn it jus in 1hour... then i jus stop dancing.... kaka.... who ask u guys make me angry lar.... pig~

MMU- foundation in managament (Malacca Campus)

yupe, i jus received MMU de reply.. i get foundation in managament (Malacca Campus)... still thinking wer should i go... ya, mmu de EP quite expensive ler... t lowest price is Rm165.. it's per person n either share with 2 or 3person in one room... HUI sis stay at EP now, so mayb will share a room with her if i really going to mmu...

after came back from zapcity, i learnt singing with my wife again... but without music de... before that, we sang fish leung n wilber pan de album..keke~

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<爱我别走> 周杰伦版本

我到了这个时候还是一样
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
我不敢想的太多
因为我一个人

迎面而来的月光拉长身影
一个人走在漫无目的的街
我没有你的消息
因为我在想你

爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔

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PASS my jpj tast liao!

I sat for my JPJ test today, n luckly.. pass liao... keke...
well, the uncle that carried us today quite early... so i got number 11th n my wife got 13th...
i started with the 3rd part(road-side)... it was sooo unluckly... before we started t test, i was asking my wife that wat should i do if i kena drive t car which is number 19th for t jpj test? cuz it's a new car n i haven touch it before... dono whether it's easy to control or wat else... who know...

when i was taking t test, 3 points nearly make me fail my test ... 1st is the car, 2nd is the laluan, n 3rd is t traffic light... before i started my 3rd part de test, i kena one pangkah adi.. cuz the jpj officer asked me to adjust the side mirror near to his part(left side one), but i cant adjust it cuz he was sitting there... wanna ask him to help me adjust it... mayb kena scold pula.. so i just left it... haha~

cuz of the piggy car, i mati enjin... b4 going out... suddenly mati enjin... so malu... all the car learners saw it... hehe... luckly, i managed to control the car after i mati enjin for the first time...
on the way (to laluan A), i was really worried... cuz of the laluan... i'm not so biasa n not sure wer should i keep right...

when i reached the last traffic light, ngam ngam.. t green colour de stupid light shining... kaka... so i kena keep going, mana know... i used 3rd gear to turn back(U-turn).. so stupid...nearly BUANG!! then he just said that he forgot to watch out on me.. keke... so... we just smile to each other... just like nth happened...

he is a young jpj officer..he asked me to drive faster wor, so i jus drove about 70-80km/j.. keke... on the way back, he asked me somehing bout my family... he knows wer is ALAM, so we just chatting along the way till i finished that part... keke... luckly i jus got 2 pangkah... one is for the side mirror n another one is for gear... i think should thanks for ALAM cuz it helps me a lot... (as ours main topic)

second part, i sat there n waited for 2/3 hours... lots of ppl failed their test especially naik bukit.. my wife also failed at there... so scary... actually she can pass it, who know the stupid car slid down... me also teruk, tak masuk the yellow line for the first time, then the jpj officer asked me "turun balik!"

walau~ very scary le... then second time pass liao... my wife kena book again, then kena wait till 26/4 baru got free... so i gonna accompany her i think...

JPJ test

Wuhuh~ just learnt angela chang de ... dis dance ler... little bit hard, but still can follow, then need to creat some also... cuz we just learnt it thru her mv.. keke!

ya.. tomolo going to take JPJ test... long time no touch car adi.. dono still can drive mar.. kaka~
so... hope god bless me.. kaka~ after i get t license, then free adi lor... jus need to decide wer i wanna go... tarC/utar/ mmu?... ai~... so pening...

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yesterday slept at 3more, and then woke up at 7am for a show... a cartoon lar..keke.... then 7.30am sleep again... took lunch at Ah Ngiat de mee shop... er.. his wantan mee.. is not soo delicious...

then at night, went to lendu with aunty Lee, went there to take dinner... it's very cheap, but too oily... haha

just went back from winky's house... the best singer from mt came also... he helped us to play guitar... try to kap the song that we going to take part in a singing contest...
that's JAY Chou <爱我别走>... nice song right?... but it become not so nice after we sing it...keek...

to: joyce

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